nothing ventured, nothing gained!!

December 9th, 2014

Dear angryemail:

Today is the first day of the rest of my life..........I have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and have since had it removed and am now undergoing treatment.  I have been given a gift from God.  A gift that I hope to be able to explain in more detail at a later date, when He sends me the message.  He has given me the grace to get through this diagnosis but I am still praying for the grace to be able to understand and embrace the reactions of others towards me at this time.  I can only equate it to how new celebrities handle their new found fame - it is very uncomfortable and a lesson I am sure God is teaching me.  So far, I am not doing so well in this department.    Yesterday I wrote how I truly feel about all of this and posted it on Facebook, thank you Jesus for prompting me to remove it before anyone got the chance to read it!!  I was telling my daughter about this and she suggested I start an email account called angryemail278@gmail.com!!  The light went off..........wow! what a fantastic idea!  Beings I like to write and journal and share what I am experiencing during this time, I thought I would begin a new blog - not one like my last one where I do show and tell, but all the things I want to say but not on a site where anyone can get upset with what I write.  It is written to angryemail and gives the reader, if there are any, a chance to write back, kinda like an Ann Landers column. Although, I find when I actually write to God in a copy book, He seems to hear me better because I am so entrenched in what I am feeling and saying.   I also invite others to write to angryemail/"are you there God?, its me"  and share whatever is irking them at the time to help vent and get it off your chest without actually spilling the beans and having the chance to offend people.  You get to say whatever you want (please no profanity), get it said then move on.  I was going to just set up an angryemail account and have an abyss of my venting and anyone elses for that matter, never to be viewed again.  But I had been thinking of starting a new blog just to write and now I am meshing the two ideas.  I don't know if this concept will work - but I thought I would give it a try.  God is always leading me and I have tried to train myself to listen when He talks - He is never wrong or untimely in His guidance - He has recently freed me of a lifetime of anger that I did not even realize I had - He is truly an awesome God!!!  He has promised to never leave me nor forsake me and He hasn't!!!!  Maybe I'll change the name to "are you there God?, it's me" .    So please feel free to write back or vent yourself -  don't leave your name cause God knows who you are, the rest of us don't need to!!!!

sincerely,

me