December 11, 2014

Good Morning Lord, I've come to do your will. 

 Yesterday I had to chance to  try and clear the air with a person I had become very friendly with and then it blew up in our faces about 2 months ago.  At the time of this blow up, I was deeply hurt, knowing that all the stuff that was being said to me was not coming from the person I had befriended over the past five years.  My sister pointed out that she thought this person was fighting someone elses fight - that the other person was fueling the fire and this "friend" was shooting the arrows.  I knew at that time that the Holy Spirit had spoken through my sister because it totally made sense because it was so unlike my friend to behave this way.  So yesterday I had lunch with this person and we talked (contact has been made and we have forgiven and forgotten (not really)) about what went down and I told her how I felt and that I forgave her for the things she said because I knew it wasn't her speaking, it was her fighting someone elses battle.  I don't know if she fully understood what I was saying but my parish priest and friend told me it did not matter that she doesn't see all that - it's ok.  I get it - I have been blessed with understanding in the whole fall out and know that I am not without sin to the real person whom this fight was about, but I am without sin to the friend who was fighting it.  I know God will one day enlighten her to all this, as He has enlightend me.

I just stumbled upon a blog from "are you there God, its me Jess" I think that is what it is - I'm waiting to hear back from her so I can sign up for postings in my inbox.  She said whatever you say, say it in love.  I am a straight shooter and brutally honest.  I think I must have been sidetracked when the Lord was handing out the "sugar coating" cause I don't know how to do that!!!!!   I try to speak with love and pray that God will put a guard upon my mouth and seal upon my lips so that I don't sin against Him with my tongue, I need to remember to say this everyday - cause when I do, HE DOES!! 

The words of our mouth always have consequences -  to quote Joyce Meyer, "I am not where I need to be, but, thank God I am not where I used to be!!"   

Today I ask you Lord, to help me to speak in love and let your light shine through me to all those I encounter today.  Amen.

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